The End?

As I sit here feeding Z wondering where the year went and I wonder if this is the end.  

I am willing to do this longer as long as she is.  I want to know where my baby went and where this big girl came from.  She will have her first birthday on Tuesday.

She only eats from mom when she wakes up and before she goes to bed.  She has a pumped bottle at lunch but thats it.  When we started this journey I said that I was only going to do it for the first year but that is up in 6 days and I am not ready.

I am ready for my body back but I am not ready for our mommy/baby relationship to end.